I feel like I've lost all of the motivation I had before things went down south in my life. I was doing so well, or getting somewhere before my computer took the biggest shit in the history of shits. I lost the love of my life in the midst of all of this as well, and slipped into probably the worst depression I've ever slipped into. I completely gave up on everything I loved and desired or had passion for. The designing, the photography, everything. It got to the point that I ended up back to drinking, after having not drank in 7 years or so, and finally finding a normal/steady job, all I did was work/sleep/drink, and play what games my little ole laptop could play. Two years I did this. It was all I had left.

Recently (well, I'd say about 5 months), I got new parts to fix my computer (thanks to that love of my life I mentioned up there, who is now just my best friend). Even though we're not together, I could not have asked for a better person in my life.
Anyway, I fixed my computer, and came to the realization that I am completely out of the loop to everything I once knew. I can still take decent pictures, but I wish I would take more. This is where the motivation is lacking. So I apologize to anyone who actually enjoyed the work that I did, and I can't say for sure when I'll find that motivation again, which is sad.

I've since decided to follow a long time passion of wanting to play guitar. I finally picked up the electric guitar that I left sitting in the dust and have started to learn on it. I'm still fairly new to it and while I'm learning slowly, I'm still quite new to it.
I still take pictures on occasion (not nearly as much as I should, though).
I have opened Photoshop quite a few times, trying to make an out-of-the-blue design, but I get so frustrated with it, because I feel so... shitty at it, now.

I want to start drawing again, because I need to.
I've been reading a lot of books lately, as well. A lot. Ever since I got that Kindle App on my Android, I've found it difficult to keep from reading every e-book I get my hands on.
Between working way too much (hello Restaurant/cook life), and trying to get what sleep I can, and trying to play my games... my time seems little.

So, in conclusion, I apologize for the lack of any type of art from me. I just thought you all should know why, and maybe you don't give a horses ass, but hey, here it is.